猫事23
到了新家以后的第二天,咪力姆再次让我们刮目相看。他很快看人学样学会了怎样上抽水马桶:)我请木匠用边角料为他做了一个小房子。尖顶圆洞,刷上白颜色的漆,还在上面画了很多卡通的猫猫和人,一边写着“WHERE MY HEART IS”,一边写着“LUV U 4EVER”。咪力姆似乎很喜欢新家和他的新卧室,成天追逐着我妈妈的拖把玩得不亦乐乎,玩累了就猫在他的卧室里睡觉和吃东西。他最爱吃肉酥了,一次可以吃半包,其实肉酥这样咸咸的东西猫猫是不可以吃的,我们是医盲,不知道这个会让猫猫涝下病根:(
猫事28
第二次看病以后,咪力姆的病情急转直下,可能和医生给他打的针有关?我的心也整日吊在半空,做节目的时候也没了心思,只想早早回去照顾咪力姆。我们约好的医生出差在外,要两天以后才回来,於是这两天特别的难熬,无论对人,还是对咪力姆。已经是隆冬时节了,冬天的太阳吝啬的只肯捐献出一点点的热度,空气里带着一些凄凉静穆的寒意。
那天下午,我请了假回来陪咪力姆,他已经连上厕所的力气也没有了,整天躺在他的小窝里,也不呻吟,只是消沉的躺着。我给他的窝挪到了温暖的有阳光的地方,并给他冲了热水袋,垫在他的身下。想起以前那整季的冬夜,咪力姆都用温暖的身体来帮我冰凉的脚取暖,而现在,连热水袋滚烫的温度都好像挽不回他日益下跌的体温,医生说体温一直下掉的话,猫猫就会有生命的危险。想到这里,我揪心般的难过,那段时间掉的眼泪比过了自外婆去世以后这几年来掉的总和。
我伸手抚摸着咪力姆,我能感觉到毛皮下面那些嶙峋的瘦骨,而他,则把他的头靠在我的手上,亲昵的叫着我,仿佛一个亲密的朋友在站台久久逗留而不愿离开。为了缓和一下这种悲凉的气氛,我打开了CD机,里面有一张我最爱的专辑,一个细细的、柔柔的女声,伴着日渐下沉的落日静静的流淌:
So this is goodbye So this is how you say it This is the time it takes you It didn't take you a lot now,did it? It didn't hurt you a lot now,did it? So this is goodbye So this is how you spell it Where you place it in your mouth What happens if I didn't hear you? What happens if it wasn't serious? Well I was around Maybe it was you I came to see Maybe it was you who invited me I remember your eyes were on me I remember your eyes were on me Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye ...
猫事末篇
我永远也不会忘记那个迎接新年的夜晚,在失去咪力姆一个星期之后的那个夜晚。我做了一个有咪力姆的梦,梦见他用他可爱的小爪子撩开我的门,轻轻的走到我的床边看着我,我惊喜的叫着,用手抚摸他的身子,我害怕会摸到僵硬的尸体,但是手感却是柔软和温暖的,我的咪力姆活着回来了。我紧紧的抱着他,走到哪里都抱着他,生怕一松手他会消逝不见。电话铃声响起,我才意识到这只是一个梦,一个甜美的梦,一个虚幻的梦,一个残忍的梦,它在冷酷的提醒我:我永远只能在梦中和咪力姆相遇了。我哭着用被单捂着头,真希望这个梦永远不会有醒来的那一刻。那段时间,我比以往更频繁的放ERIC CLAPTON的TEARS IN HEAVEN。无论在家里,一个人坐在阳台,面对这空空的没有了咪力姆气息的他的小屋,还是在直播室里,戴着大大的耳机,望着满天的繁星聆听这首忧伤的歌:
Would you know my name If I saw you in heaven Will it be the same If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on Cause I know I don't belong Here in heaven Would you hold my hand If I saw you in heaven Would you help me stand If I saw you in heaven I'll find my way, through night and day Cause I know I just can't stay Here in heaven Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knee Time can break your heart Have you begging please Begging please
Beyond the door There's peace I'm sure. And I know there'll be no more...Tears in heaven......